Soul Searching Exercise

Soul Searching Exercise

Go all the way with it. Do not back off.
For once, go all the goddamn way with what matters.

Ernest Hemingway

Post written by Katarina Miletic  Join my Inner Circle

Dear friend, you who have lived a life full of adventure, accepted the challenges and pushed through every limiting thought that came to you from outside and inside, and you are at peace knowing that you are living your full potential in this moment, eager to always go and lead forward into the unknown – I admire and respect you greatly, but this post is not written for you. I’m so grateful for your presence and support, and I hope to serve you in other ways, perhaps with new information and humour, however – this post is dedicated to people who are on the cusp of a new level, but they haven’t yet figured out what is holding them back.

You and I Know That You Know

Only, there is no doubt about it. The question is why are you not doing the work on the very thing that will effect the change your soul will keep calling you to do until you answer that call. And the longer you put it off, the more frequent it is going to get. You cannot numb it down with anything, you cannot ignore it, and there is no way you can run away from it, because your soul is pretty certainly going to go with you till the end. So, instead of a story of regret and missed opportunity and a mediocre life – let’s blast through the barrier together, because you are made for greatness, you are the light itself and you are meant to shine with the full beam.

Don’t Get Comfortable with ‘Meh’

Here’s the thing: the famous barrier that you have so glorified as the thing that is stopping you from going for all you want in life and all you are meant to become in order to be of service (and you know this is true, you know that you are an uplifter by nature, that’s at the core of your being) – that barrier is not inflicted upon you by any outside condition. Your block is this: not enough (or not any) belief in your possibilities and truly limitless abilities in terms of resources that are available to you. In other words, your belief that you are limited by something is killing your life, and until you change it – you’re going nowhere fast.

A Look Inside

All you need, my friend, is already inside you. Changing your life for the better (whatever the next level means to you) is only depending on you changing your story about yourself. And that has to happen before you break through. Unless you believe it – you won’t live it. In other words: in this moment, you have the life you believe that you deserve! No exceptions. So, what does your life tell you about you? This is not a question for you to answer to anyone else. Only you can know the full extent of holding yourself back – I have been where you are myself.

My Story – If It Can Help, I Will Share 

The moment I took an absolutely well meaning advice in the new situation that I found myself in: as a single mother with two children about to go into universities, the advice came from everywhere that I cannot sustain myself as an artist and live on commission work – I should take a proper job….

You know how that went, right? The moment I took my life off course, off my own path and against every instinct inside me, which was telling me to believe in who I am and that I will find my own way – but I thought they are smarter than me, I thought they knew better than me, I knew they only wanted a security for me. It didn’t help putting my life on auto-pilot. Eight years of convincing someone at every stage that I want to grow more, I want to offer more, I want to give more – were not met with the same enthusiasm. It was soul crushing. And my own dreams went to that dreaded place of ‘one day’ the time will be right for me to do my own thing again, to be who I am fully, to live as a full expression of who I am, to give all and then some! One day…. The soul endured eight years, and even though I would have probably lasted another five before the breaking point – life, thankfully, intervened! And at that junction I actually sighed with relief, literally sobbing in one moment of revelation that I was heading so far in the wrong direction, not at all aligned with the best gifts inside me, with who I am and where I can serve with most passion, where I can really make an impact.

You see, in my two paid jobs I was excelling. I was giving all they asked for and more. I was respected, rewarded, awarded and appreciated. But I felt I could do more and give more. Now, this hunger for going further at such an exponential rate did not resonate with the top. And no monetary reward or praises from them could give me the satisfying feeling inside my soul. In fact, I felt awful, and a little worse each day knowing I had more inside me to give, but I was prevented from and even wasn’t allowed a full expression of all that I am.

So, when this new situation presented itself and I finally saw the exit, I grabbed the opportunity with both hands and tirelessly worked on my education on all subjects and where I needed to be - in order to run my own business successfully. All the time I was working, and forever will be, on myself. I was checking in with my soul as my main consultant in life decisions. I still do (and always will)! I vowed never to go against my instinct, even if my instinct goes against everyone else. I have stood my ground, I have reinforced my belief system and set a new standard and a new ‘must’ for myself.

New Chapter

I only offer the very best inside me, to everyone. I am unapologetic about leading with who I truly am! Funny fact: the same friends and family from eight years ago (with that best meaning advice, which was loving and caring, but wrong for me!) are my biggest supporters. They have been at the beginning, they have been through it, and they are right now at the start of the next phase and next level up. They see the light inside me, they know my passion and they are grateful, as much as I am to be able to offer the world the best and all that I have inside me at this moment, in this moment.

You can only be a leader, not follower in your own life. That takes being brave to be honest firstly with yourself. Drop the belief about your limitations that is not serving you, because the truth is, my friend, that you are limitless in your possibilities and the only thing standing between you and your dreams is that belief that you are holding on for dear life. Let it go! Change it. Don’t settle and don’t choose every day to believe that same old limiting story of this and that not being quite as it should be and the stars not being aligned for you. Rest assured the stars are all aligned, but are you aligned with you?

Blue Classic in Bibury, Cotswolds by Katarina Miletic 

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