Waiting is Not an Option
I think the reward for conformity is that everyone likes you except yourself.
Rita Mae Brown
Don’t wait, my friend. Waiting is a major
waste of your time and assets, and in the larger picture – it is a waste of
life in any one of those moments, months, or years of waiting. Yesterday we
talked how a belief, in yourself and all your limitless possibilities, is the
one thing that is necessary to have, so that everything else can fall into
place, and that you can start building on and on, a better version of you with
each passing day.
Waiting is not only counter productive,
it’s a dangerous activity, because it is numbing the joy of life, muting the
vibrancy of every detail, and the longer you wait, it’s giving you the illusion
that the circumstances are still not ideal for you to take action. You can see
that is a spiral that can take hold of you for the rest of your days in this
lifetime. I’ve written the last sentence with chills in my blood, but I did
promise you to say it how it is. Sugar coating and faffing, and beating around
the bush won’t deliver the clear, straight message that my soul wants me to
write to you.
I’m guilty of waiting!
Yes, I left that sentence up there to
highlight for you that something that took me years to see and correct – does
not have to be the path that you explore. Waiting is wrong on so many levels.
Okay, maybe I had years to waste – the prerogative of a young person, and I get
the point. But the message for you is that at 45 – the cold realisation is that
my waiting for the more opportune time was actually an illusion of my mind to
mask the fact that I was just a tad too comfortable to push myself forward. And
I say it’s an illusion, because I was not that comfortable, I was letting my
soul feel the confinement, and for some reason I accepted that ‘one day’ is
soon enough. Needless to say, I was surrounded by people who even gave up hope
that their life holds a great mystery and that there is a bigger mission for
them to fulfill in life. It scares me so much now to look back and think about
it!
It is a perilous and dark road to explore.
One that I hope you will never choose to examine closer. Instead, I offer you
the benefit of my own wisdom in retrospect. I say that with humour, of course.
I am not wiser than you, my friend, but I have let life be my teacher and I
have been through those lessons and moved on, thankfully. I cannot easily find
words to describe the amount of gratitude to my inner being who never gave up
reminding me that I am not in service the way I felt I wanted to be. I am so
grateful to have had the beliefs, upbringing and the training - and that I knew
that I am my soul and that is something that will always be greater than the
mere thoughts in my head. I was lucky to recognise that those thoughts didn’t
always serve me so well, while my inner being (being the voice of my intuition)
was never ever wrong – even though I didn’t always choose to listen to it….
My art has thought me something, or to be
more precise, it helped me to see something I already knew. Sometimes I spend a
whole day or even two thinking about the new project. And have a guess how that
goes? You’re right! The more I think the more doubts and the more questions
‘What if this is not perfect?’ or ‘How will I tackle this, I never painted
something similar?’ and so on. It’s exhausting and completely unnecessary. I no
longer practice it, because I am thankfully out of the waiting phase forever!
Because, the moment I start working, is the moment that peace comes over me and
I am in the flow. Those questions don’t exist in my mind at all! Those
questions I tortured myself before starting to paint – are simply not there
when I start. And the process unfolds easily, effortlessly, and joyously. Am I
perfect? Of course not! But am I feeling perfection flowing through me as I
create? Absolutely do!
So, waiting – thus, wasting – a day or two,
is the same as waiting years until conditions 1, 2, 3, 4 and 5 (and God forbid
there could be more) are perfect for me to move a single step forward.
Take a good look at where you are in your
life. And be honest with yourself, are you exactly where you could be, or is
there more inside you that wants to inspire, uplift and serve. Giving is your
nature, because your nature is pure love. It could be that the surroundings are
making you complacent, or that you have let fear and doubt win. Really think
about it, but hand on heart! Listen closely to what your inner being is telling
you. The message from your soul is always clear, my friend. Something brought
you here to read this, and you and I both know that any coincidence is
excluded.
A Walk in Bibury, Cotswolds by Katarina Miletic
Remember – You Are Safe Here
This is the sacred place between our souls. Thank you for sharing your visions, dreams and ideas. Your courage to be vulnerably seen will always be respected, and you will be treated with nothing but kindness and compassion. ♡
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